the joy of not being sold anything!

walking down the street, listening on the radio, the radio its self, tv.something ive paid for already trying to sell me something..... fucking ads no i dont want to regulate myself with your pro-biotics, pills, or your vagisil. if i wanted to buy it, i would have. ugh i wish advertising was illegal, that one site that could not be bought would be an information center to compare everything pros and cons. its funny how tv used to be free and the companies would pay for it, and now we pay for it and still have to see a flippin ad -.- the fake happy every things perfect ad campaign... love it ha no one is really like that. i am the character of a movie called life who takes things as the come and the untrained eye thinks hes got it all together, but id just like to say i know better. everything is more appealing then what it should be, everything is fake but the day i saw a blank billboard with the words "the joy of not being sold anything" thats what made the day worthwhile and made things feel more visceral.

overdose on sticky green

everything is different 

i hate it everythings about the money these days

never about making something that can made with style or quality perfection
what ever happened to a thing called pride

the more that i see things progress 

the more i see an almighty avalanche of bullshit

people get suckered into the abyss 

todays all about the hype 

never the actuality

overly excited and focus on what evers minuscule

trying to paint me as a sinical.

but thats all you know how to do
and you do what you do

oooooogling and ogleing at a mere nothingness

so quick to applaud the moment one starts to clap.

nothing matters its all just a waste of time
now its time to step

slaughter house

These plastic toy pigs glazed in yellow beside the sheep but they are not equal
Miss Mary Bo Peep in her throne about her money but we are not equal
This black sheep gift is a curse so i am not equal
Guess this means I'm the first to slaughter house
But as the time passes maybe i should count some sheep
Just to see if you ever wake up

INTJ results

Your Type is INTJ

Introverted	Intuitive	Thinking	Judging
Strength of the preferences %
22	50	38	1

Qualitative analysis of your type formula
 You are:

• slightly expressed introvert
• moderately expressed intuitive personality
• moderately expressed thinking personality
• slightly expressed judging personality

These Eyes - these eyes realize your lies

golden brown honeycomb encased with a black and blue ring enclosing it in its confined space

 beaten and bruised from the nights never caught

 keeping in from spilling out on to the canvas where the veins meet the eye

 those light brown wood grains splinter into the suns reflection 

throughout the years much blood, sweat and tears

no shadow, no self, just the cold hard sink

wondering when will it be the time for these eyes to be granted peace

these eyes are exhausted and sometimes it feels like every thinks that I'm the one that's lost it

i cant stand the pain staking glares and this stupid fucking mirror

all it ever does is make the pain feel realer

and now all i wanna do is hear the music

the time being these eyes closed, such a short lived memory

i tried sleeping with out ever finding me a remedy 

but i still dreamed after i woke

i never stopped looking ahead 

but why? 

why does my life have to have a yesterday

it is what built me 

why must it also hold me back?

ive got candy

The Open Draw or Closet:

i open you up and you up me up

buckets brushes mops & rollers
highs meds and lows without the crash

Ms Jackson , Bloody Mary with some Cool Candy 

 dots pink and grey used for fading and blurring greens
caps skinny and fat for those outlines like murder scenes
micro spiders spit venom no webs
drippers squeezies & needles
this is my heroine my high my rush

throw ups dribbled down the wall like vomit without the hangovers

i used to make cool pics with those copics

now just many tools and implements

sitting in their boxes making friends with some bunnies

who am i?

i am evol... 
i am the one sitting with my eyes gouged out

clutch with a king hold but no fingers no webbings no hands

i see all i feel everything i know what you dont

my smile runs deep ear to ear .. not on my face  but i am cutthroat

i have no chest i have no heart i have nothing but a spine

and all that other shit ....

  not needed

take it away

what happens when you remove the things that allow others to identify you? are you still you? what makes you you? who am i? the better question is...   who are you?

how long does time take

the sultry sand forever lasting

my hourglass damaged the sand falls fast

now forced to take time

Pivot Questionaire

 

 evol...      show me how to wirte evol/love What turns you on creatively,spiritually, or emotionally? kinda long but .... whatever creatively: anything and everything ill just look at something the right way and or see something within something like a pattern or w.e and ill have an idea from that. it used to be that i would have tons and tons of ideas just pop into my head every second but they were too complex to remember or do from a thought and it was just too much at a time. but that has faded  every now and then it will happen again but not like it used to be. but yeah anyways i see things and ill get an idea or like see something in town or where ever and find good spot, ways to add my own spin to it and change the message meaning or w.e.   make it my own   if i see something i like i wanna draw it in my own way... a design.. like a car or w.e i wanna redesign it to my liking. ha honestly a lot of my ideas and work is created in class just cause i try to drive my mind elsewhere and create. if i see a picture i like ill redraw it but even though i draw and create ish in class a lot of my redesigns take place at home cause i has my music :) emotionally: thinking about certain stuff... certain songs and the deep stuff w/ friends and loved ones  What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?  psychologist/ social worker/ counselor / whatever  which was actually going to be my original major but nope...  reason being is cause i actually like helping people out with their problems and id say im pretty good at identifying the problem and coming up w a solution ... people would always tell me that i was right n blah blah blah but .....   i cant stand psychology in school soooo  yerp  movin on

What is your least favorite word? that word from mary poppins... you know that really long annoying one? ;p ;p -.-  urbandictionary definition-> a long ass word with no real meaning. SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS...       werd What sound or noise do you hate? annoying people and when people beep their horn What is your favorite curse word? fuck? why? cause i just dont give a fuck ^.^ What profession would you not like to do?  lol ummm a gyno? thats gross  ....fish ew haha well nothing in the field of medical    i has a weak stomach What is your favorite word?  my favorite word is " yo " cause it is the best response for anything  and i really dont care so umm who tf cares? lulz :)  What sound or noise do you love? bloop What turns you off?   what turns me off... people that are ignorant/bitter/snobby/fake/self centered/start shit/mean spirited/know it alls(u really dont know shit)/not open to anything that they dont believe in/and people that act ugly people that are hard on themselves need to cut that out you can only hold yourself from so much until you realize its too late<3 If heaven exists, what would you like to hear god say when you arrive at the pearly gates?  dumb question ....   not an atheist dont worship the devil lol ... just a dumb Q.....